Thank you for writing this very moving account of your experiences. As an autistic person (not diagnosed until last year, in my forties) with a controversial upbringing, I've experienced a lot of trauma and pain due to how other people outside of my family have treated me. I'm a wild animal with a very high IQ who doesn't fit into society and I've battled long and hard through life, and to this day I am still alive, still giving the finger to the human world, and still fighting as a dragon that will not yield and will not give up. Based on this and things that other spiritually aware people have told me, it seems I'm jacked into this body to kick ass and chew bubble gum...and I'm all out of gum.
However, towards the end of 2019 I descended into chronic health issues that in hindsight are very likely to be autistic burnout. In 2020 I was almost bedridden and diagnosed with fibromyalgia, but in the years since then I have been slowly recovering a bit more each year. This year I've been losing weight with probiotics and gentle weight lifting to improve metabolism and counteract eventual muscle loss from aging, as well as using some supplements recommended by the most reputable longevity people.
Regarding mental health I recognise many of your characteristics in myself. Being too serious and not "fun" enough in the eyes of others, not relaxing enough in the company of others, not feeling loved enough by my parents (mother has some autistic traits and admits she is not good at emotional stuff) even though they bought me lots of toys and things (including the Lego), and a need to parent my child-self. My mother says I was a jovial child in the first several years, but that changed when I started school and the traumas started to be inflicted. So I see a lot of fascinating ideas and wisdom in what you've written. I live in the UK so I don't think it's so easy to access really good quality therapy centers such as you describe, but who knows, maybe one of these years, or decades, I should give it a go.
Due to a lifetime of sporadic telepathy and precognition experiences, as well as some savant Jedi-like physical experiences that really shocked people, I am also very spiritual - but with strong disdain for religion, even though I sympathise with how it can be useful in people's lives - and what you wrote made me smile because your conclusions match pretty well with my view of consciousness and the mystery of the universe. The whole Jedi thing might be rather cliche and perhaps even a bit overused in the eyes of some, but overall I really do see myself as a lone-wolf Jedi. I think Star Wars is actually an accurate view into the future development of human life and consciousness, though hopefully without all the warmongering and institutional violence. Star Trek is also highly prophetical but doesn't make such a big deal about the consciousness stuff.
Thank you so much for the ideas and experiences you share publicly.
maybe you write a book about Hitler's childhood, "Young Adolf" explore the etymology of conflicted ideas that spiral to evil. Then an imaginary follow on about life in a loved 20th Century, "Man In The High Ceremony Hut".
Incredible articulation and framing of a truly mindbending phenomenon that remains a part of the possible dimensions of the human experience and can have deep implications and things to learn that relate to the rest of the human experience if one is so aligned and open. On a somewhat side note, I just watched your interview on Win-Win and was struck by your description of your fatigue and sensitivity. It reminded me starkly of my own experience with Lupus and believe it or not the use of a 1/4 tab of acid microdose a day that plus small doses throughout the day of caffeine that have made it possible for me to do a very taxing 80 hour a week job and thought I should share my experiences in that realm if it is of any use to you in your health journey. Thanks for being the person you are, David!
I haven't, actually! It's a fairly new diagnosis. My mom showed me an article a few weeks ago saying that bee sting venom therapy is shown to help prevent kidney and liver failure with Lupus, but I've heard of red light therapy being good for unrelated things and I'll have to check those out! Thanks for the pointers!
My stepmom has had lupus and fibromyalgia for many years and it can be crippling. I hope any of these ideas help, and yes I've heard of people with rheumatoid arthritis who swear by bee stings (some even become beekeepers). I cannot personally recommend this idea due to anaphylactic shock, though.
Yeah my mom actually has fibromyalgia and several different strains of lymes disease which is what she originally researched the bee venom therapy for.
Thank you for writing this very moving account of your experiences. As an autistic person (not diagnosed until last year, in my forties) with a controversial upbringing, I've experienced a lot of trauma and pain due to how other people outside of my family have treated me. I'm a wild animal with a very high IQ who doesn't fit into society and I've battled long and hard through life, and to this day I am still alive, still giving the finger to the human world, and still fighting as a dragon that will not yield and will not give up. Based on this and things that other spiritually aware people have told me, it seems I'm jacked into this body to kick ass and chew bubble gum...and I'm all out of gum.
However, towards the end of 2019 I descended into chronic health issues that in hindsight are very likely to be autistic burnout. In 2020 I was almost bedridden and diagnosed with fibromyalgia, but in the years since then I have been slowly recovering a bit more each year. This year I've been losing weight with probiotics and gentle weight lifting to improve metabolism and counteract eventual muscle loss from aging, as well as using some supplements recommended by the most reputable longevity people.
Regarding mental health I recognise many of your characteristics in myself. Being too serious and not "fun" enough in the eyes of others, not relaxing enough in the company of others, not feeling loved enough by my parents (mother has some autistic traits and admits she is not good at emotional stuff) even though they bought me lots of toys and things (including the Lego), and a need to parent my child-self. My mother says I was a jovial child in the first several years, but that changed when I started school and the traumas started to be inflicted. So I see a lot of fascinating ideas and wisdom in what you've written. I live in the UK so I don't think it's so easy to access really good quality therapy centers such as you describe, but who knows, maybe one of these years, or decades, I should give it a go.
Due to a lifetime of sporadic telepathy and precognition experiences, as well as some savant Jedi-like physical experiences that really shocked people, I am also very spiritual - but with strong disdain for religion, even though I sympathise with how it can be useful in people's lives - and what you wrote made me smile because your conclusions match pretty well with my view of consciousness and the mystery of the universe. The whole Jedi thing might be rather cliche and perhaps even a bit overused in the eyes of some, but overall I really do see myself as a lone-wolf Jedi. I think Star Wars is actually an accurate view into the future development of human life and consciousness, though hopefully without all the warmongering and institutional violence. Star Trek is also highly prophetical but doesn't make such a big deal about the consciousness stuff.
Thank you so much for the ideas and experiences you share publicly.
"Tell stories about the sick parts."
maybe you write a book about Hitler's childhood, "Young Adolf" explore the etymology of conflicted ideas that spiral to evil. Then an imaginary follow on about life in a loved 20th Century, "Man In The High Ceremony Hut".
Very cool, thanks for sharing such an intimate experience.
Incredible articulation and framing of a truly mindbending phenomenon that remains a part of the possible dimensions of the human experience and can have deep implications and things to learn that relate to the rest of the human experience if one is so aligned and open. On a somewhat side note, I just watched your interview on Win-Win and was struck by your description of your fatigue and sensitivity. It reminded me starkly of my own experience with Lupus and believe it or not the use of a 1/4 tab of acid microdose a day that plus small doses throughout the day of caffeine that have made it possible for me to do a very taxing 80 hour a week job and thought I should share my experiences in that realm if it is of any use to you in your health journey. Thanks for being the person you are, David!
I'd be curious if you've tried anything like cryo or heat therapy or red light therapy and if it helped
I haven't, actually! It's a fairly new diagnosis. My mom showed me an article a few weeks ago saying that bee sting venom therapy is shown to help prevent kidney and liver failure with Lupus, but I've heard of red light therapy being good for unrelated things and I'll have to check those out! Thanks for the pointers!
My stepmom has had lupus and fibromyalgia for many years and it can be crippling. I hope any of these ideas help, and yes I've heard of people with rheumatoid arthritis who swear by bee stings (some even become beekeepers). I cannot personally recommend this idea due to anaphylactic shock, though.
Yeah my mom actually has fibromyalgia and several different strains of lymes disease which is what she originally researched the bee venom therapy for.